好久没来更新，时光像在高速路上飞驰的汽车、一晃眼的光景，一切就已昨天。
昨天的他，还亲昵的在耳边呼吸、在臂弯沉睡、在厨房做着晚餐
昨天的我，还在享受周末的余晖和满身他的味道。不知道这样的我们，在一起，有没有那个叫做明天的东西。
顺其自然。
收到大学舍友结婚的邮件，才发觉大家都已经到可以嫁为人妻、成家立业的年纪。
倏然间，忘记到底经历了怎样的成长、怎样的经历和怎样的光景，让现在的我在此地此景想着此人。恍若隔世的错觉，像一场醉生梦死却永无止境的路途，沿途有你、有他，才让彼此不再寂寞。
仅此而已。找到周围的温暖拥抱，就可以安心的给自己放大假。
突然想一个人去旅行，逃开如此声崩离析的世界、没有一个人的背景去感受最原始的问候。那些是在他爱的酒吧夜店找也找不到的痕迹。
夜里一个人睡去、后半夜回来的人，一定不了解她入睡的心情、没有人陪、没有拥抱、没有安全感的夜晚，多寂寥。
他，永远站在一个大男孩的立场想问题、做事情，没有真爱才会让生活变得单调。在乎的人，是不会让她心碎不堪。
太久没有编故事看小说，情节俗套而语言直白，他的技巧和小聪明，让她至始至终全无安全感，有的只是妥协和老好人。亲爱的，那不是爱情，那样的爱并不值得。
我不止一次的对她说放弃，放弃一段不被在乎和祝福的感情，拉着自己的手也能跑到幸福的终点。而她，太痴迷。为一段不为人知的恋情、一曲从未弹奏的小夜曲、一朵天明之前就凋谢的白色昙花。
期待奇迹或者她的救世主，不是他，现在的那个他除了给了眼泪和隐忍，还剩下些什么~
我悄悄的告诉她，去找想要的幸福，时间还早，不必让自己多憔悴。
希望她是听进去的，希望她是比我幸福的。
这个莫大城市中，虽然有爱，但之于结婚，那还是两回事。
仅此。
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Coming to the end of this year. CNY is on the way, only five days left.Everyone in this city gonna on his own way back home,no matter how far it is...me too. i'm such a normal girl as anyone else, gonna fly back to hometown tomorrow. thanks to modern traffic. convenience and fast.
H is on the conf call now.i'm alone and doing boring things. Watching videosmoviesgo shoppinghaving fun with him at home,seems that's what we spend time together.He seems not to like to go back home, from all these years living by himself, FAMILY is just a WORD to him maybe, just like MARRY or LOVE. i guess Sth from his previous experiences, HELP him get the idea of NOBODY worth trusting or marring or loving, esp. maybe in loverelationship...whooops....
He needs to be COOL, AlONE, living like a real drifter,self-hero. He demands LOVE but never depends on it. He gets used to be ALONE but still needs cares from others. He pretend to be OK but sucks in his deep heart.
I don't know & understand much about him, but i'd like to learn more about him in the rest of the short life, thatt's all out of LOVE.
For all these years, finalllly i found him, at the time he was on the edge of PLAYBOY, drinking to death guy. i've no idea of why i fell, feeling like in no one second,i'm his.....i love to hug and kiss him,love his smell and smile. i never care his background just love what he looks like right now. I know it's little bit boring for him just hanging out with one girl,much worse is the girl turning out to be his GF. "Single and HAPPY life seems come to the end", that must be what appeared in his mind when he realized i acted as his beloved GF.Since he found out i'm the right one, he accepeted this situation and move on with me. this should be the greatest achievenment for both of us, one got BF the other got ture love.
Most experienced guy would take a glance at LOVE and throw it away, live what they want, care nothing.H is someone different,he still be kind and honest(maybe...as long as i wanna trust). He took patience and energy to deal with our relationship to keep it smooth and futher.Although he still like to hang out with different girl at bar night....hope i 'm gonna be used to it oneday, but LOVE is selfish feeling, which could never ever share with others.
I've no idea of how long we'll be together and no idea of where we supposed to go....
we're all folating on this planet and don' know how to meet and how to leave.
Anyway, i love this guy and wanna be with him as long as i can...he gonna back from his conf call, i've no mood writing more...gonnna kiss & hug him....;P
Happy New Year Everyone!
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The end of IELTS DAY, almost the end of 2009.
No more than 6 maybe for IELTS, although i did have a happy talk with Speaking tester.a kind middle aged man.with pure blue eyeballs
Looking back to the very beginning of this year, it seems nothing big deal happened. Except him, i could hardly sense any taking important role occured.
Mostly, i got routine work, associated with friends, hanging around in the mid-summer night, living a real life in this BIG city.
then there was someone came, someone left, someone never met...
For a moment, Life turns to be a dull circle,no matter it counted on SEASON or date.
Dreaming everyday have refreshment spirit but no where to find. so it dedinitely turned to be day-dreaming.
Working for a better life, this,actually wasn't an eternal fabulious target since then. we all desire more though have no idea of what is more.
I wish to be a forever-child without growing up ability. Is that a good escape. or just a excuse of NOW- condition. or i should stop reading fairtales such as the little mermaid Peter Pan's neverland.
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Tomorrow i'm gonna take 1450RMB test_IELTS
although never prepared for it, i still have to take the exam to see the results.
7 band seems really a dream due to my now English condition.
not too bad but also no hope to hit my desired band.
just take it easy and move on 
BTW, i'm planning to watch a opera after the IELTS. free tickets from vendor
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Honey u got great power to influence me, please try to avoid using your power to push me down or hurt my heart.
appreciate
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This normal weekend almost ends.i still stay with Hoyt at home.
sleepcookdrive.the whole weekend nothing new but feel real and relax.
we jokinglaughingchallenging...like a real couple
now weekend night coming,Monday is steping into our life again.
Next week i swear to stay at my apartment and prepare for the exam.
Hope i'll do what i said.
pass it and do whatever i want~ stay young & stay with him 
Fighting~A za~
Good nite~dear all~
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Dream restaurant and wonderful dinner cusion, plus with him~
never ever dreamt that happy scence for real.thanks my dear.
24 birthday, finally with my BoyFriend in Wish, had delicious cusion, what else i need.
Hope birthday wishes would come true.
last weekend, i went to my brother's wedding party. The place is defintely full of happiness. At one moment, i did wish to be bride， my dear's bride, most beautiful happiest one in the world.
this maid of honor experience absolutely changed my vision towards weddding things. also seemed speed up my desire to get married.
Next saturday, i'm gonna take IELTS exam, not even prepared, just have a try maybe i will hit the 7 band and successed in achieving NUS adiministration. Hoyt told me should be confident before take the exam ,once you lost confidence in yourself, who else would help me to pass...He is totally right, but as we all know, it's easier to say than to do.
If i' m so lucky to pass it, then i'm gonna prepare to Singapore and maybe immigrate after 5years. so H should definetly come with me if really in that condition. i never tried long distance relationship, and not gain confidence about that as well.
These days are really winter. cold wind freezing air, but once i have hoyt hugs, i would feel warm and safe deep inside .For all these years ,before i know him, i wondered maybe i was doomed to be single, and all i loves ones,gone;for all these years, all by myself, no one caresno one concersno one except family. Now i got a great company, i turned into the happiest one without noticing.
Happy ending always be there.
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不知道何时开始变得脆弱，那么的害怕失去，那么的想要握住。从指缝中流走的时间、感情、会不会换来你一次低头的浅浅微笑。
定了CC的cake,一次新鲜的尝试。
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“如果没有你 我在哪里 又有什么可惜...”
听着萧敬腾的爱的时刻，翻唱的老情歌，经典的歌词曲调，周末午后在家里静静感受着他的我身边的味道，那些时候总是很满足，满足到只是一次浅浅的呼吸就可以酿造整个房间幸福的气息。
如果没有你...如果的事情太多，多到不可预计。
每个暮色四合的傍晚，我就开始期待这些眼前短暂的小幸福，那对紧紧拉住的双手，阳光下暖暖的拥抱都不会消失，我又开始像儿时期待白雪公主能和王子在永远在一起一样虔诚祷告。
来的太快的幸福令人害怕而不敢相信，持续太久的幸福令人怀疑而没有信心，是不是感情开始的时刻就危机重重，是不是其实我们在一起也只是如果成真的命定。
流星划破夜空的瞬间，我许下幸福的愿景。Bless~
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Blog死掉的那天，还在期待它有天能奇迹般回光返照；
之后，就淡忘了。虽然这里有自己曾经多么的纠结。
今天偶尔登陆，居然它真的起死回生。仿佛那一时刻，就看到过去的自己，像这些文字般再现眼前。回忆潮涌。
时间匆匆带走我、我们，会不会也带走这份突然的感情。
一个朋友突然冷掉的热情、人间蒸发般失踪；当发现原来另有原因时，起初的情绪起伏最终淡定释然；本来就对尔虞我诈的事情，懒得去处理。她的虚伪，只是让她，终究只到这个层次而已。仅此而已。
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